We OM’d last night after nearly a week apart. Sometimes after being apart we are sexually desirous, a sexual craving hanging in the air. This time we were both quite tired, and more heart happy to see each other then anything else.
Our tiredness brought a relaxedness to it that felt nourishing and sweet. He was a bit off the mark (so to speak) with his finger at times, which led me to making simple and forthright requests in a way that felt quite effortless. I’m not sure if it was do to our tiredness or a million other variables, but I was particularly tuned into my own mechanism rather then “our” mechanism, which is to say that I was particularly tuned into my own unwinding as opposed to what sometimes might feel “our” unwindings and winding ups.
Language gets tricky here- in my reality tunnel there are always unwindings happening (I started writing a blog post about this a couple weeks ago, and the draft has disappeared!). And in those unwindings there can also be noticeable coming togethers, so to speak. What could be called a winding up. A release and gathering. Surrendering and receiving. Death and rebirth. Sometimes this exchange is more noticeably occurring. Flow. Sharing of energies. A team effort. Syncronicity. It would seem as though these things are always happening, whether in my attention or not. So, my point is that last night my attention was less on the flow between us then it was my own mechanism unwinding within itself.
From the moment I laid down I felt my system relax. The soft and yummy touch of my partners hands on my legs, and then pussy. Ahhhhhhh. I was turned on before we even started- and with the first stroke my whole body turned on a whole hell of a lot more. Because unwinding is often in my attention (I unwind people for a living, and experience an almost constant experience of unwinding myself), I became devotionally attentive to what my body was doing- ie how unwinding was showing up for me. I felt my heart and crown chakra opening. A vortex within/under my root chakra undulating. Waves, spirals, the subtlest twists and turns. My shoulders started to move spontaneously. I don’t ever remember my shoulders coming into my attention in such a way during an OM so this really got my attention! They were being invited to move in very subtle and particular ways. As I followed the invitation, I felt how there was a reverberation that flowed. I noticed how there were a series of very tiny shifts happening in my hips. My back. The fascia in my mechanism was softening and the bones and tendons were releasing. This was both delicious and nourishing. Usually I notice unwindings on more of an energetic level, so this very physical manifestation mixed with an energetic experience was so entertaining!
Often after an OM I am so turned on that I am wide awake. After this OM I was so turned on that I was ready to sleep. Such a new experience for me! It was like my nervous system had been deeply massaged and made love to. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.